Evon Green's Story
The New Age Movement
It
was very early in my childhood that I sensed a difference between myself and
other children. The ability to run and play was never there because of heart
problems that had plagued me since birth. As a result I gained a strong interest
in reading. While the others played I read. The ability to acquire knowledge
became my entertainment. This labeled me among my peers as strange. Adding to
that, I also had an ability to see things and know things that others never saw
or knew.
My religious upbringing was strongly Pentecostal, and in that environment
back in the 60’s you dared not speak of or challenge anything that was
supernatural. At the age of 16 I had my first experience in a church setting. I
remember being slain in the spirit and immediately seeing a light so bright and
peaceful that it seemed to draw me in. But after a week the experience faded and
my questions returned. Why am I different? Something’s missing but what is it?
Don’t get me wrong; the teachings were sound and based on biblical scripture.
However, as a child that had not made a commitment to Christ, I was warned that
people would think I was strange or practicing witchcraft. At that point I made
the decision to keep my experiences to myself. There was an emptiness, a void,
an unexplainable hole in the innermost part of my being, and nothing that I did
seemed to fill it. The desire to “know” or “understand” what was
happening to me was stronger than my desire to keep secrets.
So began my quest. Having always been a self-starter, I thought this to be
the perfect opportunity to visit the libraries and bookstores and find all I
could on meditation. This was the answer that I sought. I grew not only in age
but also in experience. During my search I found classes on Transcendental
Meditation and Astral Projection; finally I was around others with the same
heart cry. As I began to learn the intricacies of the mind, body, and soul
connection it empowered me to no longer be afraid or ashamed of the things that
I’d already experienced as a child. This was my mindset contrary to being
raised to know this was against the teachings of Christ. The desire came to
become a student of Yoga (Hatha for my body and Mantra’s to increase the focus
of my mind while increasing my spiritual awareness). All was practiced to bring
me into the fullness of my oneness with God. I remember sitting for hours facing
the eastern sky in lotus formation meditating while projecting my spirit to far
away lands. Daily I recited from a list of affirmations that I produced to
further propel me to my higher self. I began to finally understand the workings
of the supernatural realm. I fully believed that through guided focus there was
nothing that I couldn’t obtain, including my desire to know and to be whatever
I wanted. Not only could I make things happen for myself but for others as well.
One of the affirmations that daily crossed my lips was from the poem “Invictus”
written by William Ernest Henley, I chanted,
It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll,
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul.
How interesting, “Invictus” is a Latin word that means "invincible,”
this had become my imagined state. I truly felt that I was invincible. Whatever
I wanted I thought I was able to obtain. I even had a strong following of others
that believed in my abilities. The meditation seemed to increase my ability to
know things. Then there was a new addition included in my repertoire; a friend
introduced me to Tarot cards. Soon thereafter came an influx of drugs. My
popularity soared, I had a group that met for Yoga and meditation and yet
another that came for readings and personal insight from me. Everything was
easily justified; the drugs were natural, they seemed to intensify the oneness
with my god-self and the people really needed me. Well, the combination all of
these elements coupled with the feeling of superiority gained while listening to
the accolades of those who were my followers, really made me feel that I had it
all together.
I thought I had it all. Then one day I realized the void had not been filled,
but only camouflaged by busyness and the flattery that came with fulfilling the
desires of others. Everyone wanted what I could do and be for him or her. Once
again I turned even more into myself, more meditation-- more affirmations.
Seeking to find the God in me in the totality of who I am. I remember telling a
friend of mine that “this is really getting old, there has to be more to life
than this.” The following morning I arose to my routine of speaking out my
affirmations. I’d repeated them so often that they were now a part of my
memory. But this morning was different. As I opened my mouth the words that came
out were:
“Let the words of my mouth, and the meditation of my heart, be
acceptable in thy sight, O LORD, my strength, and my redeemer.” Ps
19:14
This was a passage of Scripture that I learned as a child. No longer could I
remember my affirmations. I didn’t understand, “Where is this coming from?”
I asked myself. Then suddenly I heard from within me, you need to find a church.
I called a friend and told her what had just happened. I felt she would be able
to help me understand since she attended church frequently. She was planning to
check out a new church herself that weekend and asked that I join her. As we sat
in the service the person speaking came forth. He began to speak a general
message of how God was trying to get our attention and directed us to this place
just to hear his word today. I felt as though he was speaking to me, just then
he took a stance directly in front of me. “God wants to fill that space and he’s
waiting for you, he said.” When he finished I left because I felt God’s
power drawing me out of deception. This type of conviction was something I had
never experienced before.
The following week another friend invited me to attend church services with him.
As we listened to the sermon the pastor ministered on “The Benefits of
Thanksgiving”. He made the statement, “God has given you everything you’ve
asked him for, he has always been there for you and when was the last time you
told him, “Thank you?” From that empty space within my innermost being I
felt a pulling, a tugging, a knowing over took me that said “this space had
been reserved for an infilling that only Jesus could give.” As I went to the
altar to answer the call I began to feel a warmth and an indescribable peace
that still resides in me today. All that I have sought has been found in Him.
And ye shall seek me, and find me, when ye shall search for me with
all your heart. Jeremiah 29:13
Today I have new desires. My goals are still to help others. Only now it’s
not to make myself feel good or to attempt to fill my personal voids. To lead
others into an understanding of the truth is my mission. I hate deception even
in its lowest form. Through my life experiences I am now able to teach others
how to avoid paths of misdirection and deception. I have started a women’s
ministry named Vessels of Honor. We minister to those who are
hurting, confused and in need of deliverance and direction. The awareness that
we are not masters of our fate or the captains of our own souls must be
realized. As a result of my research and in-depth study thru meditation of the
Word of God I have found the true captain of my soul—my Lord and Savior Jesus
Christ, and he’s here for you today. You may contact Evon by .
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